A Series of Choices

Although I haven't posted in a while, I have opened my blog quite often lately. I have started writing post after post and not finished any of them. This is not because they were something that should not be shared but simply because I did not know how to share them.
I will finish this one. Not because I know how, but because it's been too long.

When you run from one place to another, completing task upon task, life gets away from you all too quickly. I have been very busy lately. And although I often drift away during class and reminisce about stories, the ones I will write and the one I am currently living, most of the time I am too distracted and overworked to ponder any such things.
I wanted to take a moment to sit down and ponder again; a moment in which I do not let life distract me and I can forget about the things I have to do this week.
 Life is, after all, a series of tasks, of struggles and storms; of little fights that become bigger fights all of which are a part of the bigger battle. 
I have been so wrapped up in the little tasks that I often forget the big task. And, when I lose sight of the big task, the big battle, and what I am fighting for, this abundance of little fights, this repetive series of tasks, it drains the life out of me.  

I sit in class and I lose myself sometimes. I write the names of characters in between my notes and I wander through the landscapes I have built in my imagination. I read my textbooks and sometimes it makes me sad because I would so much rather be writing my stories. I would so much rather be writing, because it's been so long and my characters are waiting.
 
I made a choice to pursue my love for stories. I chose this path a long time ago, but that does not mean that I am no longer choosing it now. I choose this path every day. I choose it when I get out of bed in the morning and when I study late into the night. I choose it when I go to classes and when I go to work. I choose it again and again. I make this choice every day when I choose to work and to fight instead of taking the easy ride.
I did not just choose this when I first turned down the bend in the road, I am choosing it with every step I take. 
Every day is a choice. 
I make this choice today, and I will make this choice tomorrow, and I will choose it every day after that. 

And the names of my characters, the worlds I have built inside my head, the stories I love and the feelings I've savoured, the ones that only stories can give me, they are all there to remind me why I am here. 

Heinrich Nikel Photography

"All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us."

~ Gandalf